गजेंद्र मोक्ष – 20

साक्षाद्धरित्वेन समस्त शास्त्रैः
उक्तस्तथा भावयत एव सद्भिः।
किन्तु प्रभोर्यः प्रिय एव तस्य
वन्दे गुरोः श्रीचरणारविन्दम्॥

वाञ्छा कल्पतरुभ्यश्च कृपा-सिन्धुभ्य एव च।
पतितानां पावनेभ्यो वैष्णवेभ्यो नमो नमः॥

संकर्षणः कारण-तोय-शायी
गर्भोदशायी च पयोऽब्धिशायी।
शेषश्च यस्यांश-कला:
स नित्यानंदाख्य-रामः शरणं ममास्तु॥

नमस्ते तु हलग्राम! नमस्ते मुषलायुध!।
नमस्ते रेवतीकान्त! नमस्ते भक्तवत्सल!।।
नमस्ते बलिनां श्रेष्ठ! नमस्ते धरणीधर!।
प्रलम्बारे! नमस्ते तु त्राहि मां कृष्ण-पूर्वज!।।

नमो महा-वदान्याय, कृष्णप्रेमप्रदाय ते।
कृष्णाय कृष्ण चैतन्य, नाम्ने गोर-त्विषे नमः॥

भुजे सव्ये वेणुं शिरसि शिखिपिच्छं
कटितटे दुकूलं नेत्रान्ते सहचर-कटाक्षं विदधते ।
सदा श्रीमद्‍-वृन्दावन-वसति-लीला-परिचयो
जगन्नाथः स्वामी नयन-पथ-गामी भवतु मे॥

तप्त-काञ्चन गौरांगी! राधे! वृंदावनेश्वरी!।
वृषभानुसुते! देवी! प्रणमामि हरिप्रिये!॥

हे कृष्ण! करुणासिन्धो! दीनबन्धो! जगत्पते!
गोपेश! गोपिकाकान्त! राधाकान्त! नमोस्तु ते॥

वन्दे नन्दव्रजस्‍त्रीणां पादरेणुमभीक्ष्णश:।
यासां हरिकथोद्गीतं पुनाति भुवनत्रयम्॥

भक्त्या विहीना अपराधलक्षैः क्षिप्ताश्च कामादि तरंगमध्ये।
कृपामयि त्वां शरणं प्रपन्ना, वृन्दे! नमस्ते चरणारविन्दम्।।

श्रीकृष्ण चैतन्य प्रभु नित्यानंद
श्रीअद्वैत गदाधर श्रीवासादि गौर भक्त वृन्द

हरे कृष्ण हरे कृष्ण कृष्ण कृष्ण हरे हरे।
हरे राम हरे राम राम राम हरे हरे॥

सबसे पहले मैं पतितपावन
परम आराध्यतम
श्रीभगवान के अभिन्न प्रकाश विग्रह
श्रीभगवत् ज्ञान प्रदाता
श्रीभगवान की सेवा में अधिकार प्रदानकारी
परम करुणामय श्रील गुरुदेव के श्रीपादपद्म में
अनंत कोटि साष्टांग दंडवत प्रणाम करते हुए
उनकी अहैतुकी कृपा प्रार्थना करता हूँ
पूजनीय वैष्णववृन्द के श्रीचरण में प्रणत होकर
उनकी अहैतुकी कृपा प्रार्थना करता हूँ
भगवत् कथा श्रवण पिपासु
दामोदर व्रत पालनकारी भक्त वृन्दों को
मैं यथा-योग्य अभिवादन करता हूँ
सब की प्रसन्नता प्रार्थना करता हूँ

श्रीगजेन्द्र उवाच
ॐ नमो भगवते तस्मै यत एतच्चिदात्मकम्।
पुरुषायादिबीजाय परेशायाभिधीमहि॥
यस्मिन्निदं यतश्चेदं येनेदं य इदं स्वयम्।
योऽस्मात् परस्माच्च परस्तं प्रपद्ये स्वयम्भुवम्॥
य: स्वात्मनीदं निजमाययार्पितं
क्‍वचिद् विभातं क्‍व च तत् तिरोहितम्।
अविद्धद‍ृक् साक्ष्युभयं तदीक्षते
स आत्ममूलोऽवतु मां परात्पर:॥
कालेन पञ्चत्वमितेषु कृत्स्‍नशो
लोकेषु पालेषु च सर्वहेतुषु।
तमस्तदासीद् गहनं गभीरं
यस्तस्य पारेऽभिविराजते विभु:॥
न यस्य देवा ऋषय: पदं विदु-
र्जन्तु: पुन: कोऽर्हति गन्तुमीरितुम्।
यथा नटस्याकृतिभिर्विचेष्टतो
दुरत्ययानुक्रमण: स मावतु॥
दिद‍ृक्षवो यस्य पदं सुमङ्गलं
विमुक्तसङ्गा मुनय: सुसाधव:।
चरन्त्यलोकव्रतमव्रणं वने
भूतात्मभूता: सुहृद: स मे गति:॥
न विद्यते यस्य च जन्म कर्म वा
न नामरूपे गुणदोष एव वा।
तथापि लोकाप्ययसम्भवाय य:
स्वमायया तान्यनुकालमृच्छति॥
तस्मै नम: परेशाय ब्रह्मणेऽनन्तशक्तये।
अरूपायोरुरूपाय नम आश्चर्यकर्मणे॥
नम आत्मप्रदीपाय साक्षिणे परमात्मने।
नमो गिरां विदूराय मनसश्चेतसामपि॥
सत्त्वेन प्रतिलभ्याय नैष्कर्म्येण विपश्चिता।
नम: कैवल्यनाथाय निर्वाणसुखसंविदे॥
नम: शान्ताय घोराय गूढ़ाय गुणधर्मिणे।
निर्विशेषाय साम्याय नमो ज्ञानघनाय च॥
क्षेत्रज्ञाय नमस्तुभ्यं सर्वाध्यक्षाय साक्षिणे।
पुरुषायात्ममूलाय मूलप्रकृतये नम:॥
सर्वेन्द्रियगुणद्रष्ट्रे सर्वप्रत्ययहेतवे।
असताच्छाययोक्ताय सदाभासाय ते नम:॥
नमो नमस्तेऽखिलकारणाय
निष्कारणायाद्भ‍ुतकारणाय।
सर्वागमाम्नायमहार्णवाय
नमोऽपवर्गाय परायणाय॥
गुणारणिच्छन्नचिदुष्मपाय
तत्क्षोभविस्फूर्जितमानसाय।
नैष्कर्म्यभावेन विवर्जितागम-
स्वयंप्रकाशाय नमस्करोमि॥
माद‍ृक्प्रपन्नपशुपाशविमोक्षणाय
मुक्ताय भूरिकरुणाय नमोऽलयाय।
स्वांशेन सर्वतनुभृन्मनसि प्रतीत-
प्रत्यग्द‍ृशे भगवते बृहते नमस्ते॥
आत्मात्मजाप्तगृहवित्तजनेषु सक्तै-
र्दुष्प्रापणाय गुणसङ्गविवर्जिताय।
मुक्तात्मभि: स्वहृदये परिभाविताय
ज्ञानात्मने भगवते नम ईश्वराय॥

यह गजेन्द्र स्तव
भागवत जहाँ पर कृष्ण प्रेम
देने के लिए भागवत कृष्ण प्रेम, कृष्ण की प्रसन्नता के लिए है
गजेन्द्र प्रसंग भी लिख दिया
गजेन्द्र ने भगवान को प्रसन्न किया
लेकिन वही गजेन्द्र का स्तव
जब हम उच्चारण करेंगे, भगवान प्रसन्न होंगे
होंगे यह आशा लेकर
जो भगवद् भक्त जो वचन से भगवान को प्रीति प्रदान करते हैं
उसका उच्चारण में यह आशा है शायद
भगवान प्रिती करे
लेकिन वो भाव तो नहीं है
everyday I am repeating the same prayers
because my condition is very bad
what can be done? outside they see
ohh! you are a sannyasi
but what is my plight I know
any moment..the last day, the last moment may come
body may perish
but up till now
sincerely I cannot
submit myself to Guru
Gurudev,
he is the grace incarnate form of Supreme Lord
if I cannot submit to him
I am ignoring the grace of Supreme Lord
Supreme Lord
came to me as a grace incarnate
by ignoring I do not want grace
what Supreme Lord can do?
direct contact with guru
in which form Krishna came to rescue
the fallen soul like me
there is some defect in sharanagati
it is not sincere sharanagati
hypocrisy for that reason
I am repeating so that my
abominable condition may be rectified, for that purpose
I beg to be excused
you may think you are spoiling your time
by repeating the same
by you are
we cannot know as
Gajendra himself saying
Supreme Lord knows everybody’s heart
He is there as Paramatma, He knows everything
what is inside the heart of the
Gajendra leader of the wild elephants
what is the thinking of the Crocodile
and other jivas
like that
of that reason my condition
Supreme Lord know well
for that reason
my condition, Supreme Lord knows well for that reason, as grace incarnate form,
He tries to rectify me and
last day may come at any moment
and what I have got? Nothing. For that reason
I beg to be excused for my repetition of the
same verses
it may be selfishness though
आत्मात्मजाप्तगृहवित्तजनेषु सक्तै- र्दुष्प्रापणाय गुणसङ्गविवर्जिताय।
मुक्तात्मभि: स्वहृदये परिभाविताय
ज्ञानात्मने भगवते नम ईश्वराय॥
यहाँ पर गजेन्द्र
महात्म्य, भगवान का महात्म्य उनके हृदय में
प्रकाशित हो रहा है
भगवान निर्गुण
वो जो महात्म्य वर्णन कर रहा है वो भी निर्गुण, अप्राकृत
भगवान के चरण में सहारा ले रहा है
महात्म्य कीर्तन करके, कोई किसी का,
भगवान का, नाम नहीं लिया
अभी कहते हैं यहाँ पर
माद‍ृक्प्रपन्नपशुपाशविमोक्षणाय
यह हम लोगों ने कल सुना
अपने को….. शुद्ध भक्त हैं
स्वरुप में शुद्ध भक्त हैं
लेकिन
जानवर बोलकर बुला रहा है, “मैं पशु हूँ, जानवर हूँ”
भगवान के चरणों में सहारा लिया
एक तो बाहर में देखने में ग्राह है
he was attacked by a crocodile
but here crocodile means
crocodile is the horrible
horrible figure of this world
bondage, worldly entanglements
I can be rescued from this by the Supreme Lord
because illusion energy has enveloped me
it belongs to the Supreme Lord, He is the owner of the illusion energy
not any other demigods or any other living beings
there is no other
way to be rescued except Supreme Lord
whose illusory energy has enveloped me because of my
offense I committed
to His Lotus Feet by not serving him
for that reason
mādṛk all, like this all the
living beings in this world, enslaved jivas of this world
who are,
being enveloped by this illusory energy of Him,
are passing through cycles of birth and deaths
too much suffering
that is the crocodile
alligator
in US and Japan they say, alligator crocodile
like a crocodile and muktāya
मुक्ताय बोलता है भगवान को, मुक्ताय
किसलिए?
दुनिया का जो व्यक्ति है
दुनिया के व्यक्ति में बहुत किस्म के भाव रहते हैं
प्रकृति
प्रकृति पारवश्य
प्रकृति के वश, द्वेष हिंसा कितना कुछ
इधर-उधर की बात, मात्सर्य कितना कुछ हैं
आपके अंदर में वो बात कुछ नहीं हैं
इसलिए कहते हैं मुक्ताय.. आपका सहारा लिया
आप मुक्ताय हैं
कोई ऐसे दुनियादारी के व्यक्ति के माफिक
भाव आपके अंदर में है ही नहीं, वे सारी वस्तुओं से आप मुक्त हैं
और आप असीम करुणामय हैं
यहाँ पर, अशेष करुणाकर
आपकी करुणा का कोई शेष (अंत) नहीं है
यह गुरुजी की बात जो
सुनी, पहले वो एक ही किस्म का हुआ है यहाँ
(मैंने) गुरुजी से बोला था कि मेरे
अंदर में बहुत कमियां हैं
बहुत दुबला भाव है
इसलिए मेरे लिए संसार छोड़ना ठीक है कि नहीं
गुरुजी कहते हैं.. गुरुजी का मतलब भगवान
हमें थोडा उत्साह देने के लिए कहते हैं
ठीक है तुम्हारे अंदर में कमी है
लेकिन भगवान के अंदर में कोई कमी नहीं है
वो सर्वशक्तिमान हैं, परम करुणामय हैं
उनका सहारा लेने से करुणा आ जाएगी
करुणा तो, कृपा नीचे की तरफ चलती है
दुनियादारी का घमंड रहने से वहाँ नहीं आती है
सहारा ले लो

सर्वधर्मान्परित्यज्य मामेकं शरणं व्रज।
अहं त्वां सर्वपापेभ्यो मोक्षयिष्यामि मा श‍ुच:॥
(गीता 18.66)

गुरुजी ने वहाँ पर यह श्लोक बोलकर मुझे समझाया
यह कृष्ण की ही उक्ति है
भगवान्…..अभी जीवों का जो जीव आबद्ध हो गया और
आबद्ध होकर पुकार रहा है उद्धार के लिए
भगवान सुस्ती(आलस करके) होकर उनको उद्धार नहीं करेंगे, उनको
माया जाल पकड़ के फिर फेंक देगा माया में
ऐसा नहीं है
दुनिया का हो सकता है
कोई चोर डाकू आ गया घर में
फोन करने से भी वो लोग (पुलिस) जानने से भी नहीं आते हैं
उनको मर ने दो बाद में जाएँगे
भगवान ऐसे नहीं हैं
भगवान अशेष करुणामय हैं
वही सब देहि के अंदर में हैं अन्तर्यामी रूप से
ज्ञान स्वरुप हैं
अखंड ज्ञान.. पूर्ण ज्ञान
और अनंत हैं, unlimited
उनकी कृपा सब कुछ अनंत हैं
जो कुछ देखते हैं सब अनंत है
अनंत ब्रह्माण्ड,अनंत वैकुण्ठ, अनंत जीव सब अनंत
कोई सीमा नहीं कर सकता.. अपरिच्छिन्न
जितने कुछ अपराध करे
जब एक दफे उनके चरणों में सहारा ले
भगवान अभय देते हैं
यह रामचन्द्र की उक्ति है
अभयं सर्वभूतेभ्यो ददाम्येतद् व्रतं मम॥⁣
यह मेरा व्रत है
जो हो विभीषण की बात छोड़ दो
अगर रावण भी आ जाए
वो भी आकर शरणागत हो जाय.. मा भयी… साथ-साथ में, भगवान् ऐसे हैं
ऐसे दुनियादारी के लोग
मेरा दुश्मन है …भगवान का ऐसा नहीं है
आत्मात्मजाप्तगृहवित्तजनेषु
(आत्मा मनः आत्मजः पुत्रः तदादिषु)
सक्तैः (आसक्तैः)
र्दुष्प्रापणाय (दुःखेनापि प्राप्तमशक्याय)
गुणसङ्गविवर्जिताय
(गुणाः शब्दादयः विषयाः तेषु संगः तेन विवर्जितः तस्मै शब्दादिविषयसंगरहिताय)
मुक्तात्मभिः (देहादिषु अनासक्तचित्तैः जनैः)
स्वहृदये परिभाविताय (चिन्तिताय)
ज्ञानात्मने (ज्ञान-स्वरूपायः)
भगवते ईश्वराय (सर्वनियन्त्रे तुभ्यं) नमः॥
मन, पुत्र, मकान, भृत्य
और विश्वस्त नौकर हैं
उनमें आसक्त व्यक्ति के लिए दुष्प्राप्य हैं
विषयसंगरहित मुक्त आत्मा के पास
उनके हृदय में
शुद्ध अंतकरण में… हृदय में
भगवान्
भगवान् की चिंता प्रकाशित हो सकती है
भगवान् का आविर्भाव हो सकता है
ज्ञान स्वरुप, सर्व नियंता भगवान्
आपको मैं प्रणाम कर रहा हूँ
यहाँ पर कहते हैं,
देखिए र्दुष्प्रापण हैं
जो जड़िय मन है
जड़िय मन कब मिला?
जब भगवान से विमुख हुए
तब स्थूल शरीर मिला
मन, बुद्धि, अहंकार सूक्ष्म शरीर है
सूक्ष्म शरीर में
जो कामना है.. कामना के अनुसार यह शरीर मिला
वही मन जब यह दुनियादारी की वस्तु के लिए कामना करे
दुनियादारी की वस्तु में आसक्त रहे
सारी इन्द्रियों के अंदर में मन होता है, राजा
इसलिए अम्बरीश महाराज पहले ही मन को भगवान् में लगा दिया
उसके अधीन और इन्द्रियाँ हैं और जितना कुछ हैं
मन जब संसार में रहे तब बाकी सब संसार में रहेगा
इसलिए पहले मन को देना चाहिए
लेकिन जो मन
संसार की चिंता, विषय की चिंता में निमग्न है
और साथ-साथ में स्थूल रूप से
पुत्र में आसक्त है
नाशवान वस्तु
मकान में आसक्त है
और धन में आसक्त है
ऐसा की विश्वस्त नौकर में आसक्त है
नाशवान वस्तु में आसक्ति होने से
तो उसी प्रकार गति होती है
यं यं वापि स्मरन्भावं त्यजत्यन्ते कलेवरम्।
तं तमेवैति कौन्तेय सदा तद्भ‍ावभावित:॥ (गीता 8.6)
मृत्यु काल में जैसी चिंता होगी वैसी ही गति होगी
हमारे गुरुजी के मुखारविंद से सुना
गुरुजी एकदफे गये थे बांग्लादेश
बांग्लादेश अभी तो बांग्लादेश हो गया
वो पहले भारत के अंदर में था
वहाँ पर हमारे
महाप्रभु के बड़े-बड़े पार्षद,
चट्टग्राम नामक एक स्थान है
पार्षद वहाँ पर प्रकट हुए,
गदाधर पंडीत गोस्वामी
इसलिए सब गौड़ीय वैष्णव वहाँ जाते हैं
वहाँ पर गुरु महाराज जी गए
जाकर एक
एक धनी व्यक्ति जिसकी मृत्यु हो गई उनकी स्त्री है
स्त्री बीमार है
वो वहाँ बिस्तर में सोई है
उनकी इच्छा अनुसार (गुरुजी) उनके घर रहे
अभी गुरुजी कहते हैं… मैं सामने में था देखा
उनकी हालत ऐसी हो गई डॉक्टर ने बोल दिया
तीन दिन से ज्यादा जिन्दा नहीं रहेगी
अभी मैं कोई दवाई देने के लिए इच्छा नहीं करता हूँ
कोई परहेज पाबन्दी भी नहीं है
जो ख़ुशी खिला दीजिए
अब तो दवाई देनी की जरुरत नहीं है
तीन दिन से ज्यादा नहीं रहेंगे
अभी भगवान का नाम सुनो
जब यह बात बोला
उनका लड़का है
वो लड़का सब, तीन लड़का
वो.. उनको चिंता हो गई
ओर धनी व्यक्ति है ना, जितने रिश्तेदार हैं सब घर में आ गए
घर में आ गया, कोई कुछ आशा लेकर आया कोई कुछ ख़ुशी के लिए
सब आ गया जब सुना ऐसा
पोता-पोती सब आ गया
तब वो लड़का माताजी के पास जाके
माताजी!
माताजी को कुछ सुनाई नहीं देता है
अभी उनका शरीर बहुत दिबला हो गया ना
माताजी!
क्या? क्या बोल रहा है?
माताजी!
एक दफे ‘हरे कृष्ण’ बोलो
“मैं इतनी बात नहीं कह सकती हूँ”
इतनी बात नहीं कह सकती हूँ, इसमें ‘हरे कृष्ण’ नहीं बोल सकती वो
“इतनी बात नहीं कह सकती हूँ”
कितने शब्द हुए?
‘हरे कृष्ण’ आया नहीं?
फिर क्या कहते हैं
वो गाँव में एक आदमी था
उसने गन्दे मार्ग से पैसा कमाया
वो अच्छा आदमी नहीं है
उनको याद करने से
कपड़े के साथ गंगा जी में स्नान करना पड़ेगा
उनका नाम बताया, “वो यदु बाबू को बुलाओ”
“यदु बाबू को बुलाओ”
तब उनका जो पोता है वो आ गया
यह क्या है?
अभी इसी हालत में एक गन्दे आदमी को याद कर रही हैं
दादीजी!
आप ‘राधे-कृष्ण’, ‘राधे-गोविन्द’ कहिए
“मैं इतनी बात नहीं कह सकती हूँ”
और दुनियाभर की बात कर रहे हैं
यदु बाबू को बुलाओ
उनकी आखरी इच्छा पूर्ति हो जाए
इसलिए यदु बाबू के पास गया कि हमारी
दादीजी ने आपको याद किया
याद किया? तो जाएँगे
बहुत नामी व्यक्ति है, आ गया
वो एकदम उनके हाथ को ऐसा पकड़ लिया
इतना शरीर दुबला है
मैं जिन्दा नहीं रहूंगी
जिन्दा नहीं रहूंगी
इसलिए मेरी बहुत जायदाद, जमीन, रूपया हैं
यह जो लड़का.. तीन लड़का.. इनकी बुद्धि है ही नहीं
सारा नष्ट कर देंगे
तुम जुबान दो तुम देखोगे
कितनी बात बोल रहे हैं?
गुरुजी सामने में हैं, ये होता है ऐसा
गुरुजी सामने हैं, देखा सुना
तब वो कहते हैं
माताजी!
आपके लड़के लायक हैं, मुझसे भी बुद्धिमान हैं
आपका सारा जितना धन जायदाद जमीन सब ठीक रहेगा
आप एक दफे कहिए ‘हरे कृष्ण’
“मैं इतनी बात नहीं कह सकती हूँ”
आखिर तब वो भगवान का नाम….
किसलिए? पहले से संस्कार ही ख़राब है
यह जब दुनियादारी के
सम्बन्ध में आसक्त रहने से मृत्युकाल में इसकी ही चिंता होगी
मृत्युकाल में जब भगवान की चिंता हो तब सद् गति होती है
इसलिए ऐसे चलना चाहिए
यह नाशवान… सब सम्बन्ध भगवान से हैं
भगवान को भूल गया इसलिए दुनिया में आ गया
आकर आसक्त हो गया.. यह दंड है
भगवान को पुत्र रूप से प्यार नहीं किया
भगवान को प्रभु रूप से प्यार नहीं किया
भगवान को दोस्त रूप से नहीं किया
यहाँ पर यह जगत में नाशवान दोस्त, नाशवान पुत्र, नाशवान सम्बन्ध
पति सब नाशवान मिलेंगे, वही दंड है
इससे जबर दंड और क्या हो सकता है?
इसलिए कहते हैं जो इसमें आसक्त है वो वास्तव में,
भगवान की प्राप्ति उनको होती नहीं है
वो तो भगवान को चाहता ही नहीं
तो कैसे पायेगा? उसकी तो आसक्ति दूसरा तरफ है
दुष्प्राप्य—नहीं मिल सकते
जिसकी इस प्रकार आसक्ति नहीं है,
मुक्त आत्मा है,
यहाँ पर मुक्त जीव दो किस्म के हैं
मुक्त आत्मारामगणेर द्वारा स्वहृदये चिंतित
आत्मारामगण जो है वो तो अपने हृदय में चिंता करते हैं
लेकिन और एक अर्थ भी है
अथवा—मुक्तात्मा बलिते
त्यक्त हईयाछे आत्मा जाहादेर द्वारा
अर्थात् आत्मघाती जनगणेर द्वारा
‘परिभाविताय’—मायिक विग्रहविशिष्ट ऐई परमेश्वर
ऐई ज्ञाने तिरस्कृत हन जिनी, ताँहाके
भगवान का कोई स्वरुप नहीं हो सकता है
स्वरुप होने से तो मायिक हो गया
आत्मा भगवान का नित्य दास होकर भगवान की सेवा नहीं करेगा आखिर में
कोई नहीं रहेगा
जिसका ख़ुशी ध्यान करो
कृष्ण का करो, और कोई देवी का करो
और गणपति का करो
पेड़ का करो अपने लड़का का करो
स्त्री का करो, जिसका जिसका ख़ुशी करो
ध्यान ध्येय ध्याता त्रिपुटी नाश होकर लय हो जाएगा, आखिर में कुछ नहीं रहेगा
तो भगवान तो… इस प्रकार अपनी खुदकुशी
खुदकुशी, स्त्री पति की सेवा करती है
पति कहता है तुम सेवा करती हो ठीक है
लेकिन तुम मतलब छोड़ो
कुछ जेवर प्राप्ति करने के लिए कोई और कुछ प्राप्त करने के लिए कोई दूसरी कामना लेकर सेवा मत करो
दिल से सेवा करो सारी वस्तु मिल जाएगी
लेकिन वो छोडती ही नहीं कामना,
ये चाहिए, वो चाहिए
और पति बार-बार बोलता है
अच्छा ऐसा है
तब रस्सी गले में, लटक के….
फाँसी लगाके… लो लो
मर गया, एकदम वंचित कर दिया
इस प्रकार संसार में आकर कष्ट पाया
अभी जब कहेंगे भगवान् की सेवा करो.. भगवान् की सेवा करो
तो अपनी सत्ता को लय कर दिया
करो अब.. लो सब.. लो.. यह कपटता है
सब से बड़ी कपटता है
इसका फ़ल होगा एक दिन
तदुचित फल प्रदान तब मिलेगा, भगवान के स्वरुप को नहीं जानता है
मेरे अंग के टुकड़े-टुकड़े कर के काट रहा है
जब महाप्रभु
सब किसी के कारण जो हैं उनको ही जब मानेंगे नहीं
तब किसका आश्रय लेंगे? कौन हमारी रक्षा करेगा

Gajendra’s Prayers – 20

At first I pay my innumberable prostrated obeisances to the lotus feet of my most merciful and worshipable divine master, who is the redeemer of the fallen souls, the bestower of knowledge on the Absolute, the non-different manifestation of the Supreme Lord and the bestower of service of the Supreme Lord. I pray for his causeless mercy. I pay my prostrated obeisances to the lotus feet of the worshipable Vaishnavas and pray for their causeless mercy. I pay my due respects to all the devotees who are inclined to hear discourses on the Supreme Lord and observing Damodar-vrata. May they all become satisfied.

śrī-gajendra uvāca
oṁ namo bhagavate tasmai
yata etac cid-ātmakam
puruṣāyādi-bījāya
pareśāyābhidhīmahi

yasminn idaṁ yataś cedaṁ
yenedaṁ ya idaṁ svayam
yo ‘smāt parasmāc ca paras
taṁ prapadye svayambhuvam

yaḥ svātmanīdaṁ nija-māyayārpitaṁ
kvacid vibhātaṁ kva ca tat tirohitam
aviddha-dṛk sākṣy ubhayaṁ tad īkṣate
sa ātma-mūlo ‘vatu māṁ parāt-paraḥ

kālena paṣcatvam iteṣu kṛtsnaśo
lokeṣu pāleṣu ca sarva-hetuṣu
tamas tadāsīd gahanaṁ gabhīraṁ
yas tasya pāre ‘bhivirājate vibhuḥ

na yasya devā ṛṣayaḥ padaṁ vidur
jantuḥ punaḥ ko ‘rhati gantum īritum
yathā naṭasyākṛtibhir viceṣṭato
duratyayānukramaṇaḥ sa māvatu

didṛkṣavo yasya padaṁ sumaṅgalaṁ
vimukta-saṅgā munayaḥ susādhavaḥ
caranty aloka-vratam avraṇaṁ vane
bhūtātma-bhūtāḥ suhṛdaḥ sa me gatiḥ

na vidyate yasya ca janma karma vā
na nāma-rūpe guṇa-doṣa eva vā
tathāpi lokāpyaya-sambhavāya yaḥ
sva-māyayā tāny anukālam ṛcchati

tasmai namaḥ pareśāya
brahmaṇe ‘nanta-śaktaye
arūpāyoru-rūpāya
nama āścarya-karmaṇe

nama ātma-pradīpāya
sākṣiṇe paramātmane
namo girāṁ vidūrāya
manasaś cetasām api

sattvena pratilabhyāya
naiṣkarmyeṇa vipaścitā
namaḥ kaivalya-nāthāya
nirvāṇa-sukha-saṁvide

namaḥ śāntāya ghorāya
ghūḍhāya guṇa-dharmiṇe
nirviśeṣāya sāmyāya
namo jñāna-ghanāya ca

kṣetra-jñāya namas tubhyaṁ
sarvādhyakṣāya sākṣiṇe
puruṣāyātma-mūlāya
mūla-prakṛtaye namaḥ

sarvendriya-guṇa-draṣṭre
sarva-pratyaya-hetave
asatā cchāyayoktāya
sad-ābhāsāya te namaḥ

namo namas te ‘khila-kāraṇāya
niṣkāraṇāyādbhuta-kāraṇāya
sarvāgamāmnāya-mahārṇavāya
namo ‘pavargāya parāyaṇāya

guṇāraṇi-cchanna-cid-uṣmapāya
tat-kṣobha-visphūrjita-mānasāya
naiṣkarmya-bhāvena vivarjitāgama-
svayaṁ-prakāśāya namas karomi

mādṛk prapanna-paśu-pāśa-vimokṣaṇāya
muktāya bhūri-karuṇāya namo ‘layāya
svāṁśena sarva-tanu-bhṛn-manasi pratīta-
pratyag-dṛśe bhagavate bṛhate namas te

ātmātma-jāpta-gṛha-vitta-janeṣu saktair
duṣprāpaṇāya guṇa-saṅga-vivarjitāya
muktātmabhiḥ sva-hṛdaye paribhāvitāya
jñānātmane bhagavate nama īśvarāya
(Srimad Bhagavatam 8.3.2-18)

The entire Srimad Bhagavatam is meant to bestow love of Supreme Lord and for His satisfaction only. Gajendra recited the prayers and satisfied the Lord. We have the hope that when we shall recite the prayers uttered by Gajendra, the Supreme Lord shall become satisfied. Since those prayers were uttered by Gajendra who was a devotee of the Lord, there is hope that by reciting those prayers the Lord shall become satisfied. But inside we do not have such intense feelings for the Lord. Every day I am reciting the same prayers because my condition is very bad. What can be done? Any moment could be the last moment of our life in this world and our body shall perish. Up till now I could not submit myself sincerely to Gurudeva. Srila Gurudeva is the grace-incarnate form of the Supreme Lord. If I am not submitting to him that means I am ignoring the grace of the Supreme Lord. The Supreme Lord came to me as His grace incarnate form Gurudeva. By ignoring him I am not wanting the grace of the Lord, then what can the Lord do. Krishna came to a fallen soul like me directly in the form of Gurudeva but there is some defect in my submission. It is not sincere submission there is hypocrisy inside it. For that reason I am repeating the prayers so that my abominable condition might be rectified. You all might think that I am spoiling my time by repeating the same thing every day. Here Gajendra says in his prayers that living beings cannot know what is going on in the hearts of other living beings only the Supreme Lord knows. As Paramatma (the Super-soul) He resides in the hearts of all the living beings and knows everything. The Lord knows about what is going on inside the hearts of both Gajendra, the leader of the wild elephants as well as the crocodile. He knows the hearts of all living entities. The Supreme Lord even knows my condition very well. The grace incarnate form of the Lord has come to rectify me and my last moment may arrive anytime. What I have got? I have got nothing. For that reason I beg to be excused for my repetition of the same verses every day. It may be my selfishness.

The glories of the Supreme Lord were being manifested in the heart of Gajendra. The Supreme Lord is nirguṇa (beyond the three modes of material nature) and His glories are also nirguṇa or aprākṛta. While speaking about the glories of the Lord Gajendra didn’t mention His Name specifically. Gajendra says, mādṛk prapanna-paśu-pāśa-vimokṣaṇāya—You rescue an animal like me from the entanglements. We heard about this yesterday. In His real form Gajendra is a pure devotee of the Lord. But he is identifying himself as an animal. He took shelter to the Lotus feet of the Lord. He was caught by a crocodile. Here crocodile signifies the horrible figure of this worldly bondage or entanglement. I can be rescued from this only by the Supreme Lord because the illusory energy of the Lord has enveloped me. It belongs to the Supreme Lord. He is the owner of everything and not any other demigods or living beings. There is no other way to be rescued other than taking shelter of the Supreme Lord Whose illusory energy enveloped me because of my committal of offence to His lotus feet by not serving Him. All the living entities who are enveloped by the illusory energy of the Lord are passing through cycles of births, deaths and three-fold afflictions and getting immense sufferings. Such sort of bindings and sufferings are signified by the crocodile. In Western countries like USA, Japan etc. they call crocodile as ‘Alligator’.

There are so many different types of people in this world with so many different types of mentalities and natures. Prakṛti pāravasya—they are subdued by the material modes of nature and possess attributes like envy, malice etc. The Supreme Lord is addressed as muktāya. Gajendra says to the Lord, “You do not possess such negative traits born out of the material modes of nature. You are unlimitedly merciful in nature. There is no end to Your mercy.”

I heard the same instructions from Srila Gurudeva when I had asked him one question, “I have many shortcomings within myself so I am hesitating that whether it shall be correct for me to leave family life or not?” I asked Srila Gurudeva for his help. Guruji signifies the Lord Himself. He said, “Okay, you may have shortcomings within you but the Supreme Lord doesn’t have any sort of shortcomings. He is All-Powerful and All-Merciful in nature. If you take shelter to Him you shall get His grace.” Mercy of the Lord always flows downwards. If anybody possesses pride and ego of this world, he shall not get the grace of the Lord. So one should surrender to the Lord.

sarva-dharmān parityajya
mām ekaṁ śharaṇaṁ vraja
ahaṁ tvāṁ sarva-pāpebhyo
mokṣhayiṣhyāmi mā śhuchaḥ
(Srimad Bhagavad Gita 18.66)

“Abandon all varieties of Dharma and simply surrender unto Me alone. I shall deliver you from all the sinful reactions; do not fear.”

Gurudeva quoted the above verse and explained me. Krishna Himself proclaims this. When a living entity, entrapped by the illusory energy calls out the Lord, it never happens that the Lord does not come to rescue him. In this world when thieves or dacoits attack a person’s house and the latter calls the police to help him the police shall not go to help him despite knowing the precarious condition of the victimized person. They may think, “Let them die. We will go later.” The Supreme Lord is not like this. The Supreme Lord is unlimitedly merciful in nature. He stays as the Super-soul in the heart of all the living entities. He is named as Knowledge Personified (gyāna-swarūpa) or Undivided Knowledge (akhanda-gyāna). He is Unlimited (ananta). His grace and everything else is also unlimited. There are unlimited universes, unlimited Vaikuntha, unlimited living beings etc. One cannot limit them by any means. They are without limitations (aparichinna). Even if someone commits countless offences to Him, but takes shelter to His lotus feet even once then the Lord frees him from all kinds of fears. The following are the words of Lord Ramachandra in this regard,

sakṛd eva prapannāya tava asmi iti ca yācate |⁣
abhayam sarva bhūtebhyo dadāmi etad vratam mama ||
Source – valmikiramayan 6-18-33
(Sri Chaitanya Charitamrita Madhya 22.34 taken from Ramayan)

“It is the vow of Mine that whoever takes shelter of Me I should make him free from all kinds of fears.”

Lord Ramchandra says, “What to speak about Vibhishana even if Ravana comes to Me and takes shelter to Me, I shall free him from all sorts of fear.” Traits of worldly people like enmity, etc. are not found in the Lord.

Gajendra prays, ātmātma-jāpta-gṛha-vitta-janeṣu saktair—the Lord is unattainable to a person who is attached to his mind, son, house, wealth and faithful servant. The remembrance of the Lord can only be manifested in the pure heart of that person who is completely aloof from any material attachments. The Lord appear in the heart of such a devotee. The Supreme Lord is Knowledge Personified (gyāna-svarūpa) and is the controller of everything (sarva-niyanta). Gajendra says, “I pay my obeisances to you Oh Lord”. The Lord is addresses here as duṣprāpaṇāya—who is very difficult to attain. When does the living entity get the material mind? He gets it when he becomes averse to the Supreme Lord. He gets this subtle body comprising of material mind, material intelligence and material ego. This material mind desires material objects and becomes attached to them. The mind is the king of all the sense organs. For this reason Ambarish Maharaj engaged his mind in the service of the Lord at the very beginning. All the other sense organs work under the direction of the mind. If the mind remains entangled in worldly life, all other sense organs will automatically remain entangled there only. For this reason one should engage his mind in thinking about the Lord at first. But the mind which is attached to one’s family, house, sons, wealth, faithful servant etc. which are all perishable in nature will get the state of these temporary objects as his destination.

yaṁ yaṁ vāpi smaran bhāvaṁ
tyajaty ante kalevaram
taṁ tam evaiti kaunteya
sadā tad-bhāva-bhāvitaḥ
(Srimad Bhagavad Gita 8.6)

Whatever a person thinks at the time of his death, he shall get that state. I have heard an incident from my Guruji that occurred in Bangladesh which was part of India previously but at present is a separate country. Many personal associates of Sriman Mahaprabhu like Gadadhar Pandit Goswami appeared in the Chattagram district of Bangladesh. For this reason all Gaudiya Vaishnavas visit that place. Gurumaharaj went to Chattagram district of Bangladesh. There he was invited by a family. The main person of the family who met Gurumaharaj before had died. So the sons of that person requested Gurumaharaj to go to their place to give his darshan to their mother who was in a critical health condition. When Gurumaharaj went there he saw that their mother is seriously ill. The doctor who was treating her told her family that she won’t survive for more than three days. He also told her sons, “Better not to give any more medicines to her. She should now hear and chant the Names of the Lord.” The family was very rich and all the relatives came and surrounded her in her last days. She was very lean and thin due to her sickness and was devoid of any strength. So seeing the condition of her mother, one of her sons approached her, “Mataji.” When she could not hear due to poor hearing power he called her again loudly “Mataji! Please chant ‘Hare Krishna’ once.”

She replied, “I can’t speak so many words.”

‘Hare Krishna’ are only two words but she said she cannot speak so much. She is able to utter, “I can’t speak so many words.” How many words are there in this sentence? But she is not able to utter “Hare Krishna”!

She then said, “Call Yadubabu.” Yadubabu was not a good person. He earned money by unfair means. Even by listening his name one has to take bath in Ganges to get purified. But the distressed lady took the name of that person in such a situation. On hearing this her grandson came and said to her, “What! You are remembering such a bad person in this state!” He continued, “Dadiji (O Granny) please call out Radhey Govinda!” To this she replied, “I cannot speak so much now. Call Yadubabu.” While she can speak so many worlds but she was not uttering Lord’s name. Ultimately Yadubabu was called. She held his hand and said to him, “I am on deathbed. I have so much land and property. But my sons are not intelligent and they will not be able to take care of my property after my demise. You please take care of my property after my demise.” She was speaking so much. Yadubabu also told her, “Mataji all of your sons are very much eligible. They are intelligent than me also. They will be able to properly take care of all your wealth and property. Without worrying about all these you chant Hare Krishna.” To this she replied, “I cannot speak so much.” Till her last moment she was not able to chant Lord’s Name. This was because of the previous impressions in her heart (sanskara) were not good. If we have attachments to things of this world during our life time we shall think about them even at the time of our death. A person will get good destination if he will be able to remember the Lord at the time of his death. These worldly relations are all temporary. We have our relation with the Supreme Lord. When we forgot Him we came to this world and got attached to the objects of this world. Since we have not loved the Lord as our son, our master, our friend, our husband etc. we have received perishable son, perishable master, perishable friend and perishable husband in this world. This is the punishment we are receiving here. What more serious punishment could have been than this! For this reason it is said that the one who is attached to these temporary things of this world will never be able to attain the Lord. The reason is because he does not want the Lord from the core of his heart. So how can he get Him? His attachment is for something else and not for the Lord. So the word duṣprāpya (who is very difficult to achieve) is used in this context. It means that those who doesn’t want the Lord from the core of His heart will not be able to attain Him. Here the word muktātma (liberated soul) used in the Shloka has two meanings. One is mūktajīva ātmārāma-gaṇera dvārā svahridaye cintita—the ātmārāma (self satisfied persons) always remember the Lord from the core of their heart.

The other meaning is tyakta hayiyache ātma jāhādera dvāra which means ātma-ghāti jana-gaṇera dvāra paribhāvitaya—māyika vigraha viśista eyi parameśwara, eyi gyāne tirskṛta han jini tahāke. The other meaning of muktātma given here is who have abandoned the natural propensity of the soul also called ātma-ghāti—the destroyer of the existence of the real-self. They think, “The Supreme Lord cannot have a personal form. If He possesses a personal form then He also comes under the control of illusory energy. Whomever you worship, Krishna, Goddess Kali, Ganapati or for that sake any tree or even your own son or wife, in the ultimate state, the worshipper, worship and the object of worship will not have their individual existence. They all will become one. They will ultimately merge in themselves and will become zero. Ultimately nothing shall remain.” This is called suicide of the real-self.

There is a wife who serves her husband very much but with ulterior desires in her mind. The husband said to her, “You are serving me with so many intentions. You serve me from the core of your heart and you shall get everything.” But she didn’t stop serving him with desires.” There used to be quarrels amongst them. And one day, the wife out of anger hung herself and died. She completely deprived the husband from her service. In a similar manner, the living entities because of their material desires suffer miseries in this world. They are advised repeatedly to serve the Lord but being averse to His service they try to destroy their existence by merging oneself into the Brahman form of the Lord. This is the topmost duplicity. They will definitely have to suffer the fruits of not believing the personal form of the Supreme Lord. Mahaprabhu Himself said that the person who does not believe in His personal form is cutting Him into pieces. If we do not believe the One Who is the cause of everything then whose shelter would we take and who will protect us?